there is one thing that is really important i think i should say. my grandma has an anurism in a blood vessel going to her heart. it is still really small, but i have still heard stories about how a lady just stood up and she fell over dead cuz the anurism thingy weakened and ruptured or something like that. so i am kinda scared for my grandma. i love her and everything and she needs to have a surgery. but i think she is going to refuse to have it. it is not to the point where it is mandatory.
i also got a call from one of my friends. she said that josh got into a car accident and is in the hospital once again. this time she is not trying to make me go and see him. but i know that his mother is going to call and try to make me go. but the truth is that he is a part of my life that is over. there is nothing left but pain waiting for me if i go see him. so, yea, i dunno what i am going to do. i promised nick i wouldn't go see him but i need to talk to nick about this situation tomorrow. he is sleeping at this moment. anyways, that is all that i need to say right now i suppose. i hope everyone else is doing well.